Monday, January 31, 2011

A hug a day...

keeps the doctor away. You can never overdose on hugs, and you never know, that may be the one thing somebody needs that day.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Quote for the day...

"How can the only thing that's killing me make me feel so alive"
--Parachute

Thursday, January 20, 2011

What Would They Say?

In PLP class yesterday, we all had to imagine we're sitting at our funeral 60 or so years in the future. There were 4 speakers/groups of speakers; our family, a close friend that knows (knew) us well; someone from our work; and someone from our church or other group/organization we were a part of. We were to imagine what we would want people to say at our funeral about who we were as a person and the way we lived our life. This was really hard to do, as the things we may want people to say about us may not actually describe the way we're living our life right now. We all (probably) want someone to say at our funeral how we worked hard, but always took time to be with family and friends, and we would want to hear how in our lifetime we loved unconditionally and was quick to forgive. But how many of us are actually living like that right now? Some of us know all too well how fleeting life is and how quickly it can be taken from us. Maybe our funeral won't be in 60+ years but in 60 weeks, or even 60 days. If we want someone to say how much we loved on other people at are funeral, we need to start doing that now.

There's a song called "Live Like You Were Dying" all about taking chances and making the most of your time on this Earth as you don't know how long you have left. In the song, Tim McGraw sings "I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter, and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying. So live like you were dying". "Become the friend a friend would like to have" while you still have time to be a friend to someone. Stop and think for a second, what would you want said at your funeral, and are you living like that now? Don't put it off, because you really don't know if you'll get the chance to start once you're out of school, or have that dream job.

Live Like You Were Dying -Tim McGraw

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

One of the things I love the most...

is being able to help people. I've been told I'm a great listener, and I've had lots of friends come to me when they have something going on in their life that they just need to talk to someone about. I absolutely love being the one people confide in because not only do I love helping people, but it makes me feel loved and needed. In the same way, something that hurts me is when I see some of my closest friends clearly going through something, yet they can't seem to open up to me about it. I understand some things just need to be worked out on your own but I really hate seeing my friends in pain for whatever reason it may be. So to all my friends out there, I will always be here for you, whether its as a shoulder to cry on, some one to just sit and listen to a rant, or someone to just hold you when you can't find the words to say. I love you all, let me love on you.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

N2N

So tonight I saw Next To Normal with the best friend. The musical was absolutely amazing, especially because it was one that made you think. Without giving too much of the plot away (in case anyone out there wants to see it one day), in the Goodman Family, the mother (Diana) clearly has some kind of psychological disorder, and the musical examines how her disease effects the whole Goodman family. While Next To Normal definitely wasn't easy to watch (most def had tears in my eyes at the end of Act 1 and when it was over), it really makes you think about how the things around you can effect you and even questions what happiness truly is. One great quote from the show outlines this perfectly:

"Most people who think they’re happy just haven’t thought about it enough. Most people who think they’re happy are actually just stupid."

This really makes you think, because at the times you feel most happy, is it really a feeling of joy or is it that you feel like you SHOULD feel happy and therefore, convince yourself that you are, in fact, happy. To take it even further, how do you even quantify happiness and distinguish that feeling from simply being content with where you are in life? We can say we're happy but what does it mean to be happy? That's all for now, other than this little plug: GO SEE NEXT TO NORMAL!

 P.S. 'Valium is my favorite color'

Thursday, January 13, 2011

A Dedication Post

Even though I don't believe he ever reads this, I want to dedicate a blog post to someone who has, unknowingly, been a huge help to me these past few days. My awesome friend, Brett Grijalva, sends out a text each morning (well, almost every morning) with a few bible verses and an inspirational message for the day. The ones that he's sent out the last few days seemed to be written especially for me, even though I know they weren't. Today's was about regrets and loving someone no matter what regrets they have in their life. Just because someone has maybe a not great past, doesn't mean you can't love who they are now and the person that they've become since they lived through their past. Sometimes history is hard to reconcile with, and hard to see past, but when you do, your relationship can be even stronger and much deeper. So thanks Brett, for making my mornings a little bit brighter, I miss you a ton.

What's a Hegemon?

'Is a hegemon what a Jamaican gardener says when you ask him what he's clipping?'

Oh Bob...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

A Song About Love

This is a song about love, and not a very good one
I don’t know enough to tell you about heartbreak
But I know it’s there, and you can avoid it
By listening to your head
Which is just what I’ve done, and it isn’t perfect
But look what I’ve done instead, instead of falling for you

I’ve never really been in love and that is fine by me
I’ll sit at home and refine the person I want to be
‘Cause I’m still young and not yet prepared to waste my time
On chasing girls who are yet to fully form their minds
And I know that there’s a woman waiting, but she’s not a woman yet
So I’ll wait, and make sure I don’t do something I’ll regret

This isn’t just about love, ’cause that’s just one pixel
Of the image I’m speaking of, the one of the relationship
That we share, it’s much more important
That I learn to like you too
Though I guess before that, it’s probably vital
That I try to look for you, at least look for me

I’ve never really been in love and that is fine by me
I’ll sit at home and refine the person I want to be
‘Cause I’m still young and not yet prepared to waste my time
On chasing girls who are yet to fully form their minds
And I know that there’s a woman waiting, but she’s not a woman yet
So I’ll wait, and make sure I don’t do something I’ll regret

I could tell you that I love you all you want till I’m dry
But I can’t force myself to love you so why should I even try
I’ll have to wait, and hold my chin up, and plug away at other things
Until she comes
 --Charlie McDonnell

Something in my life that has been both awesome and terrible at the same time has been my ability to apply song lyrics to my life. I know that none of the songs that I say "fit my life" are actually written for me, but the situations seem to be almost perfect. Most recently, the songs that fit my life have kind of been along the lines of confusion and uncertainty mostly where friendships are concerned. But as I listened to this song this morning, I really connected with it. I've spent the last little while thinking I knew who was and where my relationships stood with the various people I come into contact with, but now I see that I, like Charlie, have no idea what love is, even the love that comes with friendship. So this is me, deciding that I need to "sit at home and refine the person I want to be" and work on my friendships. 'Love' you all, whatever that really means...

Monday, January 10, 2011

Life is...

There are a lot of "Life is..." quotes. "Life if like a box of chocolates", "life is pain", and the classic graduation speech metaphor, "life is a roller coaster". While quotes like these are super cliche, they're cliche because they are pretty accurate. Sometimes a roller coaster is the greatest thing in the world, there are stomach dropping moments and occasionally, you get hit a loop that just completely throws you off track. And its always after the high moments where you feel like nothing can touch you that you get the biggest drops that, if you're not properly tied down, you can be completely crushed. Whats the worst is when the ride stops and instead of speeding through the track you end up stagnating, or worse, having to walk out and take the slow route, ruining the magic created by the meters of track intertwining like a huge maze. While you finish the roller coaster more exhilarated than when you started, sometimes the dips and lows in the middle can ruin the highs created.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

The Year in Review, 2010

So now that 2010 is finally over, I figured I'd do a little review of the things that happened to me this past year and the things that are coming up in 2011.

May 1: I officially accepted my spot at the University of Denver and was accepted into the Pioneer Leadership Program. I am so happy I'm at DU, it has definitely been the best decision of my life.


June 22: I (finally) graduated from Woodbridge High School. While I liked being at WHS, I am so glad to be out of high school and onto a new stage of my life.

July 8-29: I spent three weeks living it up, traveling around England with my sister, Roni, and then up the Swiss Alps with Roni and our parents. It was an awesome trip, I got to see castles, mountains, Anfield, and of course, the TARDIS and other Doctor Who-related sites.



September 6: I finally moved into my new home, MacFarlane 131 at DU. As part of PLP I got to meet the people who are now my best friends. I have an awesome roommate Taylor, the best Facebook fiance Erin, and my best friend Sam. I don't know what I would do without these three people and the other 68 people who make up the freshman PLP class (including our awesome RAs VTeck, Sean, and Mom).



October 18: My golden birthday! It was weird having a birthday away from my family and my friends from home, but my birthday was still made great by awesome friends who decorated my window and took me to Yogurtland. Because you can't have a birthday with out Yogurtland :)



November 20: As soon as it started, my first 10 week quarter of college was over and I was ready to head home for my six week break. It was sad to say goodbye to my new friends but I knew I would talk to them a lot over the next six weeks.

December 6: The quality of my winter break improved greatly on this day as it was when Sam arrived for a couple day visit. We got to do a lot of things, including climbing up a big hill to watch the sunset over the beach, spend two awesome days at Disneyland, at watch countless youtube videos and random movie trailers on his iPad. It was great having Sam here as not only did we have a lot of fun, but through his visit and our numerous conversations that took place after he left, we have grown extremely close. Talking quite often, we became best friends and I honestly don't know what I'd do if he were not in my life.



December 25: Christmas, obviously. This year's Christmas was no different from the rest of the Yadlin family Christmas's on the surface, but it was the first Christmas now that all of us are in/through college.



December 31: The last day of the year. Looking back it was a pretty good year, and the last night was great as well. I got to spend it with some great friends, and rang in the new year optimistic for what 2011 will bring.

Tomorrow I'll be finally heading back into Denver for my second quarter of the year which will hopefully be even better than my first quarter.